Time For a Change

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It’s been way too long since I’ve last posted and I’m here to explain and hope that doesn’t happen again, because I love doing this and I’m very passionate about my blog and fashion but I’m kind of going to change things up a little bit and I hope you don’t mind. I want to share more of my life with you all, I kind of am thinking of staring a vlogging channel on Youtube, let me know what you think!
Lots of things have happened since February, good and bad. 
So If you all know me and I know a lot of you don’t really but I have a HUGE Passion and love for Musical Theatre and it’s been a part of my life since I was a little girl, from dancing classes to singing lessons… I’ve been in a show every year since 2010 and have loved every minute of it. It teaches you so much and you grow with your cast to become a family and let me tell you they are some of the best people I’ve ever met. 
Any who, my all time favorite show is Chicago it’s been my favorite show since I could remember and I found out a local theatre in my town was doing it in October (Is when I found out) and I worked my butt off getting in shape, getting my voice in shape for these auditions which happened in March. I literally went as far as buying the script and taking voice and acting lessons to prepare myself even more. Which I loved every minute of. It kind of gave me a new sense of myself, I guess, of what I’m capable of. It was like day and night I would come home from work and just dance and sing all night.  I was so prepared, I know this show like the back of my hand. I wanted to be casted as Roxie or Velma. Mind you I hate auditions and this was the best I have ever felt about doing auditions. 
A week before auditions, I got sick with a REALLY bad head cold, I did everything I possibly could to get better and I went through three days of auditions sick but I felt I killed it, except singing, but I did the best I could while being sick. This was the hardest week ever. 
A week later, I found out I didn’t get the part. 
I was torn and I felt like a part of me kind of got torn away because this was such a huge part of my life for so long and I was so excited and passionate about it, it’s hard to get over. 
I asked why, why didn’t I get the part? 
They told me, they thought I was phenomenal and fought very hard to get me as a lead. 
But the musical director thought I didn’t listen(only because I was sick and legit couldn’t)
I guess I’m writing this and getting a little bit more personal with you all because it’s been a huge part of my life and I want to share with you what I learned and if any of you are struggling with something similar, it doesn’t even have to do with musical theatre but your job, or other aspects of your life. I want to tell you to not give up even when you feel like what you did wasn’t good enough because you are good enough, your hard work will pay off or it already has and you’re slowly learning from it. Hard work and passion will take you so far in life, never give up. 
I don’t think I’ll ever get over it, it’ll always be there because of my love for that show, but I can say I learned a lot about myself. 
I also cut my hair which is a huge step for me, I’ve worn extensions since 2010. I was in a show based in the 1920’s and had to cut my hair into a bob, and it took forever to grow out, and it finally did.. I stopped wearing extensions in November, they were like a comfort thing so for me to cut my hair is a HUGE step, I feel so great with my hair short and BLONDE?! It’s so different for me but it’s such a good change. 
Thank you all for reading my blog, I appreciate each and every one of you. 

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